Hello fellow Fashion Lovers. Time to check in. I have been neglecting you all, apologies, bad Val.
It’s safe to say it’s been a challenging couple of weeks, lots of ups and downs and changes afoot. Being a 56 year old menopausal woman, change is not good, particularly when it is outwith your control – control is very important at my age.
I have taken a good look at myself and I don’t like what I see, age is not being kind, however, I cant blame it all on age or the menopause, much as I would like to, I have to own my s*** and make some changes. I need to look at what I am putting into my body as it’s having an affect on how I look on the outside (fat, bloated face) and feel on the inside (depressed).
I drink too much wine , I always have, not that I drink every night, I just don’t know when to stop once I start, what?????????????????? (That’s the culture nowadays, look at the adverts at Christmas or any other Bank Holiday, all they seem to have on offer is deals on alcohol). No excuses, wine is nice with with dinner, after the first one, a relaxing feeling washes over you………………………unfortunately, the more you have, the less relaxed you feel!!!!!
Having been extremely shy when I was younger, being able to drink alcohol when I started going ‘out out’ was great, I felt like the funniest, sexiest female on this planet BUT I wasn’t, I was still Specky Val, it was just an illusion, with the help of ROSE’ tinted glasses (see what I did there???), but now people wanted to be in my company, daft Val, so funny , doesn’t take herself too seriously, class clown, always up for a laugh. I WAS A PEOPLE PLEASER………………… if only they knew the truth behind the bravado.
As I have gotten older, I have actually gotten wiser, I know, bloody scary. I now realise, I don’t need to please people, in general the people I have tried to please in the past weren’t really worth it anyway.
I also know that taking pride in my appearance, having racks of clothes, shoes, bags, lovely bags and accessories, putting my face on daily, doing my hair and nails, going to the gym, means nothing if I am going to continue with an unhealthy diet (at times) of a cocktail of food and alcohol.
So last night, I was out for a lovely meal with friends and decided, I don’t need a glass of wine with dinner, 1 will lead to 2 etc, I will then think I am the most entertaining person in the world, start holding court at the table, bore them rigid with the same old stories, so, I stuck to soft drinks, came home at a reasonable hour, watched some TV, went to bed, had a full nights sleep (with no heartburn),woke up this morning, jumped out bed and went for a walk.
I want to be the very best version of me that I can be. I want to be healthy, happy and in total control. I want to be the first to leave the party, not the last man standing and more importantly I want to please me.
From tomorrow I will be mapping out my journey, hopefully you will join me on it and follow my progress and watch me cross the
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