Good morning FF’s. Up bright and early are we? Well, I am, the early part at least.
As some of you may or may not know, or care TBH, I was getting myself in a tizzy about a wedding I was going to on Friday, it was kinda a big deal obviously, for everyone concerned, not least, the couple themselves, not to mention family and friends etc, but for me, it was nerve wracking. I find weddings always are but, this one, was much more so, I really wanted to create a good impression and also not let anyone done, particularly me. I had turned myself into WeddingGuestZilla, worrying constantly about what to wear, buying all those outfits, shoes, bags, jewellery, not too mention the pressure I had put myself under trying to shift the weight I have put on (which I didn’t).
All I can say is, NEVER again. Never will I put myself in that position where I doubted myself and had so little confidence in my looks or my own ability to just get on with people, worrying too much about what other people think/thought of me. At the end of the day, you cant please everyone, it’s human nature. The old Val would have drank copious amounts of wine to get through the day, putting on a front as she was always has, in the hope that people like her, think she is sooo funny, life and soul of the party, and waking up the next day feeling like crap and remembering nothing, hoping she hadn’t said or done anything stupid!!! NB, I woke up early yesterday morning, remembered everything, started cooking for the weekend and could look in the mirror, no remnants of last nights make up or pasty face = over indulgence (as I hadn’t). I’m 58 now, time to grow up, pull up the Bridget Jones knickers (sadly, I did actually have to wear them), a lot has happened over the past few years, life changing things that have not only changed me as a person, but, my outlook and what I want out of life.
I know I will never be the prettiest (I’m not blind), the funniest (I am funnny though, honest), the thinnest (I bloody used to be), but I will always try to make the best of myself, whether it’s dressing up or just sitting here doing my BLOG, which I would never had the confidence to do, if it hadn’t been for someone believing in me.
I know this is all a bit heavy for a Sunday morning, rest assured, the menopausal MADWOMAN will return, quicker than you think………
In the end, I had a great day, everyone did. The couple were just stunning, the wedding itself was wonderful, from start to finish, I met a lot of nice people I would never have got the chance to meet in normal circumstances and hopefully made some new friends too and…….get this, I didn’t hate myself or the way I looked, (that’s not to say I loved myself either, it’s baby steps) but, what I saw in the mirror wasn’t TOO scary!!!!!
So, as the title of this BLOG says, Enough Already (and to all of you out there, who, like me, sweat the small stuff) – Just be you. You’re the best!!!
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